LIfe is COMPLICATED

Last week, I had Communication class with Miss Anne. Basically, she wanted us to speak up n share any thoughts or opinions with other fellas. Anyway, there's one topic where she wanted us to tell of all 3 stage or phase that we've gone thru, which one is consider the best or, u know d-most memorable one. We'r given 3 phase which is during primary school, secondry n when we were at University.

As far as I remember, of all 3 phase that I've gone thru, I think my primary time is d-best n d-most memorable that ever happen to me. After I reached my puberty ( not gonna tell y'all d-exact date, age n year anyway) my life has never been easy. It seems like, everything was a mess n it still going to be, well, wish I knew wut will happen next in my chapter in life. Maybe next time I'll unleash or reveal piece by piece of my so-called bad-virus-experiences n hope I'll figure out how to FORMAT myself n get a new n FRESH-without-virus of Nasrul...hmmmm

*sigh*

Anyway, there's one male speaker the other day in my class, which I think he's rather, well, quite ambitious n I can tell how eager he was n determined to send d-msg across. And he kept looking at me as if I was a Serial Killer or something. Well, he told me n to others about d-powerful of "Law of Attractions".

Through out d-class, he kept mentioning bout' above matter n he said that, how his life has changed into something better after, well, u know, applying those law of attraction. Those who wanna know more what he's trying to say, well, basically it's about ur dominant thoughts will find a way to manifest. Therefore, it's kinda like motivation that will drive u into doing something that u wanted to do. Say, u want to be a singer, of cos u gonna do anything at any cost to achive that goal rite?...u'll not allow any negative thinking get in ur way in d-process of getting there. Get my point?...Ok, that's all about Law of Attraction. Sorry 4 d-explanation.

ANTM cycle 9-episode 10

I just happen to come across this blog talking about d-latest episode of ANTM cycle 9, episode 10. Well, d-blogger clearly state on his blog how annoyed he was watching Seleisha n Bianca being such a BITCHY and mean to Heather. In fact, he rephrase or should I say rename Seleisha as Suckleisha....hehehehe. Yeah, that's bitchy gal.

Anyway, I post a comment regarding above matter on his blog. Apart from bitchy-biatch things, I also agree with him in terms of photoshoot-wise, which both of us think that Heather effortlessly nailed every single of photoshoot she did.

covergirl of d-week: Heather

However, I told him, d-only fly in d-ointment is, Heather is not good at communication n doing commercial due to her Autisme or something. Can't recall d-name. But hey, she can choose not to speak up or, u know, just having ur pic taken without open ur mouth. Linda Evangelista once said:

" I can do anything you want as long as I don't have to speak" - Linda Evangelista.


That's her 3rd most quotes to remember and 10th in d-Supermodel Quotes. And of cos, Linda was n still jaw-droppingly beautiful.

Anyway, Here d-SPOILER 4 that episode - LISA was sent home...n Heather was bottom 2. What?..yeah, she was.

DeamBoy

By looking at d-tittle, u might be wondering what was I thinking...hehehe. Well, it's not mine by d-way. It's a movie or to be more spesific, it's a Phillipino's movie. Frankly speaking, this movie is far from typical love story that I've seen so far.

Basically, it's about Cyd, a working gal who'r immersed herself in romance novel. Her best friend concern about her life especially her frend's love life. She never seen her friend dating or had a boyfriend. To Cyd, she has never given up d-idea of looking her dream boy.

Untill one day, Cyd caught a 9-years-old boy stole a toy in hypermarket. She demanded d-boy 2 give her all d-stolen stuffs then she handed him some note/money n a toy and asked him not to shoplifting again. Without realising it, the owner of d-hypermarket's son (Philips) witnessed d-whole events and he approached Cyd and told her how amazed he was.

Cyd with Philips

From there, they fall in love. But, to Cyd, their world are totally different, one is filthy rich and d-other one is poor. D-smart n d-specky Philips is totally against with what's in Cyd mind with regards to different world thingy. Then, Philips had to go oversea due to company expansion n she lost contact of him.

Cyd with Eboy

Her life back to normal. One day, She was walking down d-street and from out of nowhere, a snatch thief grabbed her bag. Fortunately, a rough, rugged and adventurous guys went after that snatch thief n managed to get d-bag back. When d-mysterious guy returned d-bag, Cyd was stunned after taking a look at him cos he looks like Philips, but d-saviour denied it and introduced himself as Eboy. Then, they started seeing each other n fall in love again. When Cyd was about to admit that she loves him, a gal claimed that she' s Eboy fiancee came into their soon-to-be-husband-and-wife world. After learning d-truth about his past, it leaves her feeling betrayed.

She was so devastated n lost faith on finding her soulmates. Luckily she had her backbone supporter n her colleague (forgot his name) which he had confessed to Cyd that he love her n will always lend a hand when she's in fragile condition.

One night, her close friends and her grandmother made a surprised birthday party at some restaurant. A waiter was heading to Cyd while holding a birthday cake. Then, d-male waiter revealed his face and he looks quite similar to Philips. Cyd, without thinking or even ask, she stood up and push d-cake towards this male waiter b4 she ran away. On d-way back home, she regained her so-called consience n she felt terribly sorry of what she had just done coz she didn't even know who he was. Rushed back to d-restaurant n she apologized to d-cute n soft spoken male waiter. He introduced himself as Jaime.

Cyd with Jaime

Somehow, Cyd noticed there are similarities among the three men but Cyd keeps her thoughts to herself. Jaime are more like a casual guys n also like a boy-next-door kinda guys. Cyd was trying to get over Philips n Eboy as they spent time together untill they'r drawn 2 each other.

Anyway, I like d-climaks of this movie when Cyd was at hypermarket n Jaime was there looking for her to confess something that might hurt her feelings. There's , u know, small things that I'm not gonna tell here. Anyway, Cyd was crying when she spilled to Jaime that she LOVE him and suddenly, lotsa people, it's like a drama/film shooting crew gather around this couple and one male emcee cornered Cyd at the standalone mini-studio which at the background reads : "Mr Dreamboy - reality show about a man searching a woman". Then, a flashback memories started to appear in Cyd's mind, from the moment she met Philips and what worst was it's all been videotapped. Cyd couldn't forgive Jaime of what he'd done.

This so-called reality show was experimenting it first formula on being a match-maker n had been looking 4 suitable candidate to be a Mrdreamboy and d-candidate had to play 3 different charactor to fool the lady 1st. But Jaime was actually kinda fall in love with Cyd n FYI Jaime was his real name in d-movie. B4 he accept d-offer by d-manager of Mrdreamboy, he was oversea graduate and had owed some money from someone and he badly want some money to pay 'em back. So that's how it started.

I tell u, I can't tell that Eboy was d-same person at 1st. Until I reached d-last 15 minutes of the movie when they revealed one-by-one how they cheated on Cyd just for d-sake of the reality show program. However, along d-process, Jaime actually begun fall in love, in fact he asked d-manager that he wanted to stop d-show n tell d-truth to Cyd. But, they not allow him to do that cos d-program was still running.

Well, at d-end of d-movie, Cyd forgive him and they fall in love again. D-whole crew including d-manager also share their joy n happiness. Bravo.....2 thumbs up. Good job to these talented actor n actress. Ur great.

D-hunky PIOLO PASCUAL & D-gorgeous BEA ALONZA

Farewell Party

Having said that, refer to above title, u guys can guess what I wanna highlight here. Hehehe....Yupp, FREE food always come into my mind when there's Party involved.

B4 that, I wanna talk about d-purpose of d-party 1st. Yesterday, we had this class party aka farewell party. It's 4 3rd batch of Insep Program. A day b4 that, I got msg from Selvi to inform me bout' d-class party cos I didn't come to class that day. So, d-next day, I just bring myself and actually I was told to bring along some foods but due to my financial, u know, kinda broke, so I just bring my 'ABS compartment' and my 'pouty lip'...uiksss

Anyway, I was completely spoilt 4 choice. But, I sampled everything 1st. I had karipap, kuih seri muka, chic nuggets, sausage, lotsa choice of soft drinks, 2 choc cakes , 4 diff flava of MisterPotato and oh yah...imported choc brought by Wendy. Actually, there's other foods which I dun recall n didn't know d-name of it. Way 2 much man, I was really2x full. In fact, I did 'TAPAU' some of d-leftover. Huhuhu...

Anyhow, I'd like to wish GUT LUCK 2 y'all especially 3rd batch 4 being such a under-bitchy-standing guys.

nO diRecTioN......

*staring out d-door*

then.......

*long sigh*

hmmmmm, I dun like this feeling. It's indescribable and I'm almost wanna give up. Well, dun get me wrong, I'm not gonna commit suicide or something. That'll be d-least thing I.....I mean, of cos, I'm not even think of hanging myself or jump out of windows. I'm not gonna hurt my body n soul. It's a sin, by d-way, and I'm already (way 2 much) have sinned. Not planning to top-up d-sin or wuteva.

It just that, u know, at d-moment, I've been thinking lotsa things. But, I still manage to balance all d-burden on my rite n left shoulder. Somehow, I'm afraid what if I can't take it anymore and accidentally let all those heavy burden piled on me slip away? Well, it's not a burden but I'd like to remind myself it's a responsibilities. Not 2 mention that, I'm OFFICIALLY BROKE.

Bcos of that, I'd to go back ealier from class today. I'd say that, my rigid body was there, but my mind was flying thru d-air like no direction. I'm so pathetic-jobless-so-called-USM-graduate....DUHH. Sorry 4 being such a melodramatic n self-critical melancholic.

Innocent lookS ???

"My 1st impression was, u look innocent n sorta budak baik kinda guy"........

I've had received comments more or less like d-example above on what people might think or should I say, how people perceive me, especially at 1st meeting. Actually, this kinda feedback somehow make me feel a tad uncomfortable. This is mainly bcos, I dun like d-typical of a-good-guy-image-which-never-make-any-mistakes expectation. Getting sick of it and I wish I had somekinda card-box hanging around my neck that reads "I'm not a VIRGIN but I don't look like a Pamela Anderson's siblings"...hehehehe

Anyway, it just that when some of my casual acquaintance get this so-called electrical-shocked expression when they found out something that I've done like...u know, something BITCHY. That's why there'r saying that "Looks can be deceiving"

Having said that, how would u guys rate my so-called innocent looks on a scale from 1 to 10 based on above pic. Huhuhuhuhuhu

Heavy RaIn

2day I was stuck at home till 1.15pm, I mean at Tany's home. It was raining cats n dogs outside. I was planning to go somewhere alone, yeah..let me repeat ALONE, cos I just love doing my stuff without having friends or u know so-called company to come along with. And later, thanks 2d-heavy rain coz did a good job on washing my motorbikes that have not been washed for years....hehehehe

Hari Raya Open House

Some people say, Hari Raya is d-whole month of Syawal while d-others say d-celebration only last 4 d-1st week of month of Syawal. Regardless of what other people say, I myself feel that we'r supposed to celebrate our victory 4 d-whole month of Syawal. Anyway, I got less than RM15.00 4 this year's Hari Raya angpau , huhuhuhu. Actually I didn't xpect to get angpau since I'm all grown-up already. But hey, always young at heart, 4eva.

If I'm not mistaken today is 24th or 25th of Syawal. Anyhow, I've been to 5 different Hari Raya Open House, so far. Can't resist d-temptation of d-glorious selection of food. Normally, I piled on "Nasi Impit" or "ketupat" and soaked 'em in peanut sauce "kuah kacang" but in small portion coz I dun want to get bloated n mizz d-other appealing foods.

I remember when I had "ikan bakar" or grilled fish which come with tamarind-and-d-unknown-ingredients kinda juice on d-2nd day of Hari Raya at my hometown in Parit 13,Sungai Besar, Selangor. It was like fish-feast where there's lotsa types of fish which I didn't know any of 'em. Besides, squid n prawn also were there and ready to be grilled. And also, plenty of chopped chicken were ready to be placed over d-charcoal fire. I tried all of 'em n dipped 'em into tamarind juice n voila.....kept stuffing myself until my limit meter showed d-warning sign. Huhuhu, but d-only fly in the ointment was, d-smell of d-tamarind which was made of chilli+onion+tamarind paste itself lingered for hours. In fact, I washed my hand like, countless time not to mention different kinda soap that I used. Maybe next time I would defenitely use spoon or folks instead, but to enjoy this kinda foods, using bare hands is highly recommended coz it'll bring more flavour into our foods or wuteva. Hmmm....I should have invented some soap or anti-smelly-tamarind-hand-wash liquid/soap. *grin*

Meanwhile, on the 2nd week, me, Coco, Amzar n Khirwan went to Keadilan Open House. FYI, I'm neither Keadilan supporter nor to oppose 'em. I'd say i'm on d-fence. Anyway, forget about all d-political thing. As usual they have beef rendang, peanut sauce, nasi impit, fried bee hoon, laksa, lemang, ketupat palas n other desserts. I wish I had digital camera so I could take d-pic of those yummy dishes except 4 d-laksa coz d-laksa sauce was too plain. It's free by d-way. LOL

Apart from that, I'd been to Usm's Open House n Niza's (Amzar's friend). I tell u, d-foods was heavenly finger licking good especially at Niza's. Since it's a private open house for a handful of close friends, we were really made ourselves at home. D-hostess was really generous n nice. I started off with some hari raya cookies, then followed by main dishes that afternoon. We were served with a huge bowl of noodles which was soaked with thick sauce and garnished with chopped spring onions, diced tomatoes, spicy soy sauce and others that just made 'em fantastic n awesome. D-moment it was placed on d-table, d-aroma fragrant spices tickled our taste buds. Plus, we'r even given option either d-crispy fried onions or d-crispy fried garlic as a choice of topping. As 4 me, put both, infact, those crispy-things was homemade OK. I thought it's bought from some groceries, but I was wrong. How it taste?...Personally, this one was d-best so far. Trust me, go n ask my other fellow frends which had d-dishes like, 4 times. Amzar was d-1st rank followed by Tani n Coco. Hehehehe......After that, I helped myself to kek lapis serawak n a piece of moist-coating-choclate cake. Then I took d-ketupat-shaped-made-of-sugarpaste part placed at d-sides of d-cake. So childish...huhuhu. Anyway, d-entire day was superb n thank u Niza n family 4 a splendid Hari Raya Open House.

No Allowances

I'm broke. Kinda shy to ask money from my parent. Actually, I was supposed to receive RM340 that supposed to be deposited into my CIMB saving account by PSDC last week coz all my frenz already got it. So, during lunch break, I went to CIMB and for d-3rd times I asked d-bank teller for updating my account. Still...there's no sign of money that's been deposited. I sensed there must be something wrong, somewhere.

When I got back at PSDC, I buzzed Siti (she's in-charged of INSEP student's affair) to inform about this matter. I was stunned to learn that due to my so-called inactive account, the money/allowance cannot be deposited and there4 allowance 4 this month will be pushed 4ward to next month. Meaning that I'll be getting October's allowance n Nov's at d-same time. Duhhh......

But then, I did ask d-bank teller if there's any problem with regards to any transaction that being made in inactive account like mine. She replied, no. Kinda confused. Well, d-last transaction that I remember was....2 years back, I guess in 2005. No wonder it's considered inactive but how long does it take to consider my account is inactive?

Anyway, the BIGgest problem rite now is I'm BROKE. How am I going to survive??? Or...what am I going to eat 4 d-whole month?....arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Should I be snatch thief???...or should I borrow money from AH LONG or ALONG???